marsmonster

[在氤氳的四月]
春天是一隻也許的手
什麼也沒撞壞
類似這樣
慢鏡頭的雨點所形成的觸感

如題
（這兩個字很不負責任）
（那麼可以這樣解釋）
（有一天有個騎騾又背個行李
　箱的旅人在對面的玻璃窗裡

關於腦漿和鬧鐘的關係
我企圖用鉛筆劃一條長線將兩個字眼連起
例如意識和時間
寫實者頹然離去了
僅留下他的影子

因為都很在乎
所以都不小心的著急了起來
但是你都投石子引起了波瀾
怎能叫湖面平靜
昇伯伯真是神奇,把悲傷留給自己又恰時出現在晚上的7點21分在一樓通往二樓的第16階梯

Well is it cruel or kind not to speak my mind and to lie to you, rather than hurt you?
Well, I'll confess all of my sins after several large gins, but still I'll hide from you and hide what's inside from you
And alarm bells ring when you say your heart still sings when you're with me.
Oh darling, please forgive me
But I no longer hear the music

滿滿的滿滿的應該是要嘔吐卻是噴火的我憤怒
走走走我們去郊遊你在前面我在後頭
和樂融融春光明媚山明水秀蝴蝶飛啊飛的
我的火山爆發了燒光一片綠油油
我走著走著你斜角的走來

last night Ripley (my little bunny cat) came up to me in bed and laid her head on the pillow next to mine like a person. she stretched out and put one paw on my face, as if to say i love you...though it came in purrs. i thought about how magical this was. i felt so connected with her even though most of the time she seems like a silly little creature. i often question whether we have souls, but in moments like this, i don't doubt that my cats do. they are so much smarter than we think. if given love, they are superior beings. i guess the same goes for humans.............and dogs.
i watched a really powerful documentary on HBO called Dog Dealers. an organization, Last Chance For Animals, executed an undercover operation over several years to get a dog dealing facility closed. apparently these guys were legally selling to research facilities, however, the conditions that hundreds of dogs lived under and the treatment of the dogs was horrific. i was impressed that one of the under cover agents sacrificed a year of his life working in this facility to take these guys down. he is an angel! his findings found on videotape were horrendous: small dogs cowering in corners, dog graveyards, etc. it was literally auschwitz for dogs.
though i've been a film fan all my life, i am more intrigued with documentaries recently for several reasons: the heroes are real, the evil is sadly real, the happy endings are real!!! they reveal the balance in life, that of good and evil. they highlight the boundaries between the two and reveal how much our everyday decisions create our character that will ultimately put us on one side or the other. films draw from real life, showing the imagined battles between good and evil that exist in the world. it is important to remember that they exist. people get lazy with their morality. they let little things they say or do slide, next thing you know, you're an asshole, or much worse.
when i was in my twenties i was overwhelmed by my conscience and by awareness. it fueled my vegetarianism and my political activism, but i've learned that one little girl can't hold that much knowledge of the world and still live a life filled with happiness. it's one of the hardest balances i have tried to figure out for myself, so when watching Dog Dealers, i feel floored, knowing that my protective and maybe even lazy side, will give me respite after a day or two. the thing is, i know it's out there. we all know that dicks like this exist out there doing a whole myriad of terrible things. i just need to be reminded of their true arch nemesis of goodness and hope they they come out victorious most of the time! at the very least, make a contribution that funds their costume.